Don’t get too excited

Its hard to write and explain what my life is like here. Thus, why its hard to write blogs about my life here. No one can understand it unless your actually here living it. Meetings get canceled because its raining or people feel “too lazy to come”. I get frustrated and still have to find motivation to work and remember why I’m here. I don’t want this to sound like I’m unhappy here, because it’s quite the opposite. Its just a different life here and I’m continuing to adapted to the challenges that wouldn’t occur in the states. I take it day-by-day and accept whatever happens here as an adventure. I have some successes, 40 girls coming to my girls empowerment meeting and discuss menstruation and pregnacy, but also many disappointments. I want to see so much happen in the two years I’m here but the most change I will see will be with the people I interact with daily. My family; my sisters english has improved immensely since I have been here. She has read the professor and the housekeeper and she’s only 11 with english being her second language. I have to take that as a success. My big projects, which involve more people working together, are basically at a standstill. I push for meetings, to get quotes on services for my grants, but the lack of time or motivation from my counterparts severely slows the process. I could take this as my own fault too of being away for surgery, who knows but I’m still pushing. As a volunteer I am suppose to increase the skills of the local people and I won’t be doing that if I complete the grant and project on my own. Which, I am so tempted to do because then I would finally see some physical results.  Without the local community people involved in the projects, the project would then most likely fail. Rather than get down on myself about my big projects not moving forward I try and focus on good days motivating a high school student towards college and helping them with their writing or my 30 something year old counterpart going back to school to get her certificate.

All in all, peace corps is time consuming. Not in the way of being busy all the time but in the way that change and development takes time and persistence; way more than two years that I’m giving. So, for the people who said when I was leaving for service that two years was too long, its not nearly long enough. I will serve my country and complete my service, but I’m just realising more and more to focus on the small victories and keep stepping towards the big ones. Thanks for all who support me in this endeavour and will keep updates coming 🙂

3 thoughts on “Don’t get too excited

  1. Was the project you’re working on something that communities wanted in the first place? If not, have you discussed potential benefits and values of project if/when it comes to fruition and see if that is also a change that they want to see? are there other movers or shakers within the community that could work with you? many questions, many variables. don’t give up. have you discussed with your host family what they would do if they were in your situation?

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  2. Hi Ally,
    Your thought about small victories is very true. I’ve learned in my tobacco work that it needs to come from the ground up. People have to want it enough to get the job done. Then and only then will they be be motivated. Perhaps there should be conversations about what is it they want and need. Maybe you have already had those conversations. Staring small is a good idea. Like your sister, she wants to learn English and is motivated to do such. You see her practicing.
    Keep up the good work. How do you eat and elephant, one bite at a time. thanks for stopping by to see us. Love your posts and blogs.
    Sharon

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